2012: The Year of Resolutions

Alright.

Here we go.

I’ve been thinking about starting a blog for a while, but worry that my life isn’t interesting enough to read about. Along with becoming more interested in blogs in general, I’m desiring a new way to unload everything that’s been on my mind. A public, virtual journal of sorts. Kinda scary.

Anyway, lately I’ve been thinking a lot about resolutions. I don’t really know why. I never make resolutions. I do like to stop and evaluate my life periodically, but on a smaller, more consistent scale than New Year’s Resolutions. I’m not much of a goal-setter. Sounds kinda sad, but I think it’s because I’m a realist. I like to make decisions based on the choices in front of me. Bam. Keeping it real-like.

I think I’m entering a season of change, which is funny because the dust is finally settling on a lot of physical changes in my life. Last year I had a baby. I had a change in my job. We bought a house–and moved. But now I feel like I’m embarking on some changes of the more internal-nature.

Becoming someone’s mother is a life-changer, for sure. I love every minute of being with Liam Knox. I mean, have you seen the kid?! He’s amazing. But being wrapped up in this thing called parenthood makes it easy to have some of me get washed away in the process of raising him, if I’m not careful. I don’t want that. I’m not just a mom. I still need my brain stimulated. I still need to share my gifts. I still need to do things that I love to do. Just because. I need to do those things for me. I need to do those things for Liam. I need to do those things for Jonathan, and for everyone else who knows me. I need to walk in the fullness of who I AM. Nobody else can do it.

All of this is making me think about things that I want to improve in me. Like…

to stop apologizing for things that I shouldn’t be sorry about (it’s such a reflex, and sometimes it doesn’t make any sense)

flossing every day (I’m already failing, but 50% isn’t bad, right?)

finding a place to lead people in the studying of scripture (if I’m honest, this really is one of my gifts)

express to friends how I value them (without being paralyzed by the fear of rejection)

running more often (exercising, in general, really)

get comfortable admitting that I am a strong-willed girl (like everybody doesn’t already know)

make all kinds of awesome DIY stuff for our new house (not a broad goal, at all)

I guess that makes these (and many more, unlisted) my resolutions for 2012. Happy New Year, everybody!